CONFESSIONS OF A CONFUSED MIND....

UN-COMFORTABLY NUMB PART 1....

This is not abt footbal or man utd....

I have not the slightest idea why im blogging now....probably coz im feeling down,i dunno....my mind has been filled with thoughts,thoughts and thoughts....so thought it would be good to save my thoughts before it meanders through the valley of thoughts again(ore flow la vandhurthe)....ok,these thoughts may mean nothing to you....

"na jane kab se"
"umede kuch baki hai"
"mujhe teri yaad kyun aathi hai"
"na jane kab se"
"dhoor jitna be ....i dont remember"
"ab so aadat si....i dont remember"
"i dont remember...shikwa nahi...i dont remember"

these are excerpts from the song called "aadat" by jal....amazing song....rocks....u will defy reach the "valley of thoughts" as u listen to it and i ve been there a couple of times....here it goes....transistors and resistors no longer interest me(not that it always used to)....iam not going places or so to say,im not going
to US,doesnt interest me now....MOCK CATS seem to be mocking me everytime and the last was nothing short of just that....just like when i thought i was getting better,i messed up....hate to tell u stories,so will stop with that....hate to say
"i ve lost it"....i have not actually....IIMs may seem far,its not...the nearest being banglaore...talking of bangalore,on my way back from the "land of the nearest IIM fom chennai",Paulo Coelho took me to slovenia and Veronica decied to die....
halfway through the book,thought i was in ljubjana,but had actually reached katpadi....thought i cld find veronica and tell her "why did u do this?"(before she died ofcourse)....since i dint find her,got no reply....so got on with the book again....as i finished the book and got down from the train,thought i cld find "veronica" or atleast "veronica like" people....vent in vain....amid all the
hustle and bustle at chennai central,no one can find veronica,i thought....do these kinda people really exist?....i have no idea....i got lost..i came to the conclusion there were no veronicas in this world and that was when i realised where the bus
stand was....

Came home,of course not to find veronica,but to listen to eddie vedder to see if he can spring up with answers....all that he cld tell me?...."worldwide suicide"....what is he trying to tell?...terrorists,jihadis,mujahideen?....wotever....is there
something in common between terrorists and veronica apart from suicide?....nothing i guess....suicide bombers and the like kill other people and themselves too....veronica fortunately just herself..."veronica like" people are expected to fall off from the edge of the "flat world" coz of changes?....changes like the boom of the internet,outsourcing,the techno progress,in short the globalisation as cited by tommy friedman in his book "the world is flat"(he was very optimistic though!!!!)....but veronica never lived the fast life like these people who underwent changes lived....she was much different from what times demand and of course much different from terrorists....yet she wanted to die....as vedder started with his next
song,my senses resurfaced....the song?...."alive"....